Going through a curve...

Sometimes life throws us curve balls.  Situations or experiences that we can't quite make out just why they are happening.  We work and work on ourselves and think we're finally doing ok and then another crack in the sidewalk appears.  Another shoe drops and you wonder if all this positive thinking is really working at all.

I am going through such a curve.  You see?  I am just like you.  I am human with all my quirks and foibles and insecurities.  I don't have it all together...but I am a work in progress.  As you are.  As we all are.  And yes, we're going to make mistakes.  We're going to take the harder road.  We're going to piss some people off.  But we're going to keep working at it.  Continuing to have hope that what we believe COULD happen...WILL happen.

Surrendering is what is needed.  Surrendering to the situation...to the experience...to the madness.  Sometimes the things that happen just don't make any sense to us.  We're clip clopping along and BAM!!  We're crying..we're in the pits of despair.  It happens.  Crap happens.  No one is immune to it.  But, how we deal with the crap is what matters.  Do we wallow?  Well, maybe for a moment...you are allowed that.  But, do we stay in the quagmire?  That's up to the individual but if you do be prepared to not learn anything from the experience and also be prepared that it will happen again.  Maybe not the exact same situation but something along the same lines that makes you react the same way.

As I said...I am not perfect.  Neither are you.  And I will continue to keep working at it because that is all that I can do.  That is all that WE can do.

Let us pray for one another.  Keep each other in our thoughts.  Send Light and Love to others and it will bounce back to you.  Let us hold hands in an energetic sense and give support.  I know I need it and I thank all of you that are sending that to me.  I lift you up.... as you lift me.  Namaste

Negativity creates....

I have worked very hard over the years to remove negativity from my life.  Some days are more successful than others.  I was raised in a very negative family so it came easy for me.  Then as I matured and grew into adulthood I always wondered why others seemed to have it better than me.  Again a negative thought.  But the thought made me start to investigate all that maybe I was doing to create the life that I was experiencing.  I mean, the common denominator was always me.  So instead of listening to those who meant well (it's them...not you) I started to see how I was playing a part in what was being brought to me to experience.

My saving grace was and is the book "Excuse me your life is waiting" by Lynn Grabhorn.  I've probably written about this book before but I can't say enough about it really.  One of the stories in it has stuck with me.  It's the one about a woman and her husband who were traveling on a highway one day and all of a sudden this young kid throws a heavy rock down from an overpass and it shatters their windshield causing the woman to die.  How horrible!  To think that someone's thoughtless action could cause such misery.  But further into the story you hear that this woman was super negative.  That she thought the world was out to get her.  That she believed if something good happened to her she'd be sorry for it later.  You know, the next shoe dropping kind of person.  Lynn Grabhorn went on to describe that this woman and this young kid had had no connection in life except energetically.  He was an angry person wanting to take out his frustration on someone and she was a willing victim.  Not even knowing it...she had drawn this experience to her and voila!  Her life is over.

You've met these kind of people right?  The ones who look like everything is going well but when you talk to them their life is in shambles (to them it is anyway).  That nothing goes right.  That everyone is picking on them. They get angry at the slightest little thing.  They know for sure that that guy who cut them off today was out to get them.  You tell them they look great today and they say "oh...this old thing?"  Or you compliment them on how well they are doing and they say "well if you really want to know the truth..things aren't so great" and then they go on and on about how awful their life is?  Give them an "in" and they take it.  Over and over with the "bad stuff".

Steer clear of these people.  God bless them they're on their way to something "big".  Something that you want to be well away from.  I say this from experience.  I was one of these people for a very long time.  I work at it every single day.  It's not easy but necessary to get as far away from negativity and negative people as possible.  If you have someone in your life who is like this...sit them down.  Tell them the truth.  Let them know that their thoughts and their remarks are drawing difficulty to them.  Let them know that you love them enough to share this with them.  Give them Lynn's book.  Then walk away.  This was done to me...and I will always be grateful.  You may lose a friend....but one day..they just might thank you.

Thank you Brenda......T

Faces in Photos...

The full photo shown here is of my Grandmother Mabel taken circa 1930's.  Wasn't she lovely?  Very much like a movie star in her day.  I have been looking over old photos recently that my Mom gave me to have copied and put on disc for everyone to have.  On closer inspection though, I started to see other things within the photos.  This is not the only one that I have that I see "other" things in.

Some people say that matrixing or pareidolia (finding faces in most everything) are to blame for what I see.  But I don't think so.  My friend Mark actually isolated some of the faces for me so that I could see them better.  I am not a photographer and know nothing about how to photograph...I just snap and take.  But this photo was taken by my Grandfather Jesse.  He was an accomplished photographer in his time - in fact that is what he did for a living so he knew what he was doing.  If you've kept up with my blogs you will remember that my Grandfather used to have prophetic dreams and his Grandmother actually used to be the neighborhood seer.  

I am now looking at photos in a whole new way.  Especially the ones that he took.  If you have any interesting photos you'd like us to look at send them to me.  Here's the email:  Awakendivinefhf@gmail.com

This is fun!

Gone...All Gone....

Today as I walked my dog Finnegan, and continued to do my Ho'oponopono chant (I'm sorry, Please forgive me, Thank You, I love you) I noticed the world around me.  I noticed that the temperature was on the warmer side.  I noticed that the breeze was slight.  I noticed that people seemed happy on the street.  That the sun was particularly bright.  And then I noticed......

That my pain was all gone...my hurts...my disappointments....my anger....my stubbornness....my everything...and in it's place was a serene feeling.  A feeling that all is right with the world.  With my world.  And I can say that I feel totally at peace...totally ready for the new things being brought to me but relishing the moments I have...right now.

It's all gone...completely gone.  I think back on past hurts and they mean nothing to me now.  I have finally put it all away.  They have no power over me any longer and I can say with all certainty...that this is my choice.

Namaste my friends.....

A New Year....

Yes it's 2012.  But what does that really say?  It's just another year right?  On December 31st we think that the next day will be different.  That the new year will hold promise and great beginnings.  But does it?  We look outside ourselves for so many things..things that never materialize and then we get angry or disappointed that they didn't.  But are they really outside of ourselves?  Aren't we the Master of our lives?  Don't we get to choose what happens or doesn't happen?

I often wonder....I love all the Law of Attraction stuff.  I'm sure you've noticed.  And I love the Ho'oponopono teachings that I am undertaking but when the bad stuff hits.....what do we do?  We go through the initial stages of "what the heck just happened" and you sit there in the crud of it and wonder what to do next.  Then you pull your hair a little and vent at the Universe (if you're anything like me) and then you sit and realize that it's all up to you and that no magic lamp is going to fly down from the sky for you and fix everything.  And then you start to move towards fixing whatever is going on or just dealing with whatever is going on.

Some of us, lately, have gone through some horrific things.  Do I have all the answers as to why these things have happened?  I do not.  Am I going to sit here and tell these people that because of them...these horrible things happened?  I am not.  I wouldn't want someone to tell me that or even to insinuate it.  Bad things happen.  And until the dust is settled and the pain is weakened, we can't see the silver lining in it.

So...if you're wallowing in something right now.  Wallow.  No one should judge you for it.  And if they do, they don't really deserve to know about it.  Your life is your life.....do with it what you will.  Are you angry?  Be angry then...be the best angry you can be.  It's ok....it will pass.

I wonder often....when I am gone...will my being here have made the planet a better place?  Was I part of the solution or part of the problem?  I hope for the former....we do our best.  We take each day as it comes and we continue to look for the silver lining.  After all...we are only human...I am only human.  I do what I can......and I'm sure you do the same.

May this year be a better year for all of us....

"Zero Limits" by Joe Vitale

Once in awhile a book comes along that I just have to share about.  This is one of them.  "Zero Limits" by Joe Vitale.  You may remember him from the "Secret" movie and he has written many books about abundance.  But this one is very different.

My friend Brenda turned me on to this book.  It's funny but Brenda always seems to be the one who brings me the best finds in books.  She and I have been on a spiritual quest together now for many years and when she said she thought I would be interested in reading "Zero Limits"...I knew it had to be good.

Freedom...pure and simple.  It's what I've been searching for, for years.  But, I always thought that freedom had to come with a price.  Well..it does not.  But what it does have to come with is some understanding that my life and everything and everyone in it is because of "me".  All the problems, all the issues, all the pain and suffering, but all the joys too are mine and mine alone.  And when someone comes into my life that I don't like or don't agree with..guess what...it's because I created them.  They are my mirrors.  So therefore, I am responsible.

Sound weird?  It's something I've always known and wondered why more people didn't get it.  What you do to one you do to us all and to yourself.  When you see lack in someone else....it's your fault...you put it there.  When someone bugs you...you are really bugging yourself.  When you moan and groan about the politicians that are running this country....you got it....they're there because of you.

So the gist of this book is "forgive yourself and the world will open to you".  By forgiving and loving yourself...you open up to the wonders of the world.  Pure unadulterated freedom......forget how you got here.  Forget how you let someone hurt you...forget it all.  Fill your mind with love and forgiveness and you will experience true freedom.  And when you do this for yourself...you do it for everyone.

I have just started on this new road of discovery.  I have just begun to forgive all the parts of me that created the pain I see in the world...but I am so excited to finally "get" it.  To hang out in the "zero limit" of time and space.  To finally know that heaven is right here...right now...because I create it to be so.

I love you
I'm sorry
Please forgive me
Thank you...

Go buy this book....it's life changing and you will not regret it.

And so it is.....

Warmth....

I have death on my mind today.  Still Waters meets me at the water's edge...it's a cloudy day but it's warm...so glad that it's warm.

"What is troubling you child?" he asks

"I guess I'm just afraid of the unknown...what happens when we get to the other side?  Is there another side at all?  In the ghost investigating I do, I now wonder.  Can you enlighten me on this?"

"Why do you fear anything?  Fear leads you nowhere but brings you pain.  There is nothing to fear because you choose your existence.  Just as you chose to come here and incarnate for many lifetimes...you choose what your life will be like when you return to Source."

I look at him with doubt in my face.....

"Why do you doubt me?  Look...we are sitting at the edge of the ocean...why?  Because you chose it to be that way.  The day is warm but in your physical world it is not...how?  Because you chose it to be...do you understand?"

"But...my physical world is cold right now...there's no changing that even if I wanted to..."

"You're wrong" he says "If you wanted it to be warm you could just go someplace warm...isn't that right?"

"I guess so"....

"Listen, what you call death is just a journey home.  And in that home you can do and be and live wherever you want just by thinking of it."

"Ok then...how come some of these Spirits that I come in contact with seem lost and stuck...like they're not home at all"...I ask

"These Spirits you speak of were lost in life....they know no better.  Pray for them and the Light will shine for them and lead them home..but again..it is their choice whether or not they follow the Light.  They may choose not to and that is their right."

I sit....suddenly I am catapulted into swirling color and light.....it's not frightening but soothing.  Still Waters is there with me and we are floating....he asks "so....where would you like to go?"  with a gleam of mischief in his eyes...

"Oh"...I sigh...."everywhere warm"......

He laughs....