Asking for help...

I've been letting little things get to me lately. Things that wouldn't ordinarily upset me have been upsetting me. I am usually a very easy going person. Most things just run right off my back so I have been wondering what is going on with me. The energies of the planet? Sometimes I get so tired of people using that as their excuse. I don't want to use it as mine. Frustration is the key feeling. Things don't seem to be progressing as quickly as I would expect them to. They are progressing but at a snail's pace. I have asked Still Waters to meet with me today to discuss it.

****We sit as usual by the ocean but today there are people everywhere on the beach and they are crowding us in. I'm not very happy about this and immediately feel put out.

"Why are all these people here? I just want you to myself!"

He sighs and brushes sand that a child has just kicked on his jeans. We sit cross legged on the beach as always staring forwards to the ocean but there is shrieking of children and radio's playing all around us. "This is to prove a point to you"...

"OK, what's the point? It's not clear!"

He sighs again....."Look around you. Why do you let the actions of others upset your day? Haven't you learned by now that those around you are drawn to you to teach the lesson each day? Don't you know by now that the lesson is within you? Don't you get it that these people are here at your own invitation?"

"huh?" "what? I didn't invite these people...you did!"

Still Waters turns to look at me. "Look at me and tell me that you don't know that this...all of this...this confusion, this frustration, this anger....hasn't been invited by you. Tell the truth.....in an instant it can all go away..at your own choosing."

I start to cry..."but I don't want it! I don't want to keep feeling this way! I want peace, harmony, unconditional love and dangit I just want to know that I am loved!"

He continues to stare at me. I sigh deeply..."ok, ok...yes, I understand. Now can we make it all go away?"

In a blink....all the people are gone. It is quiet and peaceful....the only sound is the waves and the occasional seagull. He grabs my hand and squeezes it. "See? That wasn't so difficult was it?!"

"Remember that your life here is all a lie. It is not who you really are. Just as no one else is who they really are. It is a fragment of you. A piece....one that will be gathered together with all those other pieces of you when you return home. The anger, the frustration, the sense of being alone is just a figment of your imagination. Release it and send it back to nothingness because that is where it belongs. Not within you.....You are pure light. As all are pure light. When you feel at odds with yourself and others...ask for help. We are here for that you know...all of your guides and teachers and loved ones in Spirit are here to help you. You need only ask."

I close my eyes and take a deep breath of salt air and I hang my head down and start a prayer "Great Spirit....help me to see that I am loved, protected, and nurtured by you each day. That I am not alone in this journey. That the roadblocks before me I have put there and they are easily walked over and around. Keep me strong and clear in my understanding that my life is what I make it and that it's been all my own doing and that I can change it. Fill me with your Light, your love, your strength."

I open my eyes and Still Waters is there beside me. All the people have returned, but this time them being here doesn't bother me. In fact.... I see each face as someone I could love.......