Let the Music Play....

It's late. I am sitting by a bonfire with Still Waters (my Indian protector guide). The heat from the fire feels good on my skin. I look down. I am wearing a buckskin dress. It's adorned with many pieces of turquoise. It reminds me of a dress I coveted years ago while visiting the Grand Canyon. I couldn't afford to purchase it but here it was now on my body. I look to Still Waters with a question in my eyes.

"Why are we here Still Waters. I miss our ocean setting"

"We are here because there are others who need to speak to you" he replies

Out of the shadows come people I recognize. People who over the years I've had disagreements with or words with. I cringe. Uh oh...I thought. This isn't going to be easy.

Still Waters says "Don't be afraid...go with it"

So I do. One by one they come towards me and when I think that they will start to berate me instead they smile. And then they tell me what a lesson they learned from our experience together. How the lesson changed their lives and what they continued to do with that lesson. I am in shock and in tears. I have held onto so much pain....and it is a great release.

Slowly they disappear and Still Waters asks me "So what have you learned from those experiences"?

I look at him. The dawning of this message comes loud and clear. I have held onto the pain instead of working through it. Instead of realizing and understanding the great gift of each situation. I am stunned.

"I guess I have some work to do"....I reply

"The word work makes it sound like something to do that is unwanted. Turn it around...look at it differently. These were all gifts to you and to them. Grow from them. But then let them be. Don't hang onto them. You've held on too long. Like your Master says....Go and sin no more. Forgiveness of self is what is needed."

He goes on...."Your life is a symphony unfinished. There are the lows of it and the highs of it. The sound sometimes soft and sometimes brash. If you were perfect...if anyone was perfect...what would you learn from that? Nothing. You are not the Master....."

He grabs my hand and we start to walk away from the bonfire.

I ask him "Why am I dressed so ceremoniously?"

He smiles and a doorway appears right before us that wasn't there a second ago...

"Step in and you will see..."

I hesitantly open the cracked door wider and step inside. An orchestra awaits and starts to play....sweet, sweet music that brings me to tears.

Still Waters says....."This is you...isn't it beautiful?"