In my alternate life....

I'm sure I'm not the only person who wishes they had the time to do all the things that they would like to do while they're here this time. All the many careers...places...etc that fill our mind each day. I have no regrets with the life that I have chosen but there are times when I see myself so clearly doing other things...

I am living by the beach. My house sits directly on the sand. The porch needs to be swept each day because of the sand that blows onto it. Each morning I wake before dawn and I brew myself a pot of coffee and drink it while sitting on the porch watching the sun rise. I feel the breeze off the water and relish in the sound of just the waves and the seagulls. I walk to my little shop in the tourist area and open it to a tinkling bell. The shop is serene and peaceful....my office in the back for clients and classes. I have my husband beside me. He takes care of the store part and believes in me wholeheartedly. When our day is over we walk home and cook dinner together and sit again on the porch. Life is wonderful...

I am working in an orphanage in Europe somewhere...doesn't really matter where. I have a small cot in an ante room off the main sleeping area for the children. I wake each morning to sleepy eyed children who crave the touch of a human being. I tend to their needs and am filled with the knowledge that I am making a difference in these young people's lives.

I am in a limousine that is taking me to a hospital in a town that I am visiting. It is in the middle of the night. I have a man with me who is my assistant. We are quiet. It's late. We pull up to the hospital and I walk in to the main area and the nurse recognizes me. I say "show me the sickest"...she complies without a word. I am taken to the children's terminal ward. I silently go to each child and lay my hands upon them. Some wake up as I touch them and I tell them that it's ok - they'll feel better soon. I leave as quickly as I came. So many sick...so little time....

Do you have visions like these? Of things you would do? I believe that the visions of it are just as important as actually doing them. So I dream on.....because I just might be making a difference....